Ugh. Sigh.
We had Jackson's allergy appointment yesterday for testing. We got there and the nurse asked if I brought food..I did not 1. Because they didn't tell me to 2. What would I bring egg? Soy? I THOUGHT we were redoing the skin test. After a lot of confusion we finally saw the doctor who told me since it had only been 5 months he did not recommend a skin test. And he won't do another one until NEXT SUMMER. NEXT SUMMER. Meaning we have to continue NO egg or soy for basically until he is almost two. I had really high expectations that we were coming in today for him to say we could at least start trying soy. Nope. AND absolutely no nuts of any kind until he is THREE. THREE. ************ And we have to start using another cream ya da blah blah more stuff to put on him at night which is already torture. And he said the words of well I don't want to limit his milk intake since his proteins are very limited without egg and soy.. basically because he isn't doing that great with milk either.
I love our allergist. He is very nice and I respect him professionally. So none of my feelings are towards him, it's just the situation. I think I have kept thinking well in a couple months he'll be fine or a couple more months. I guess I wasn't being realistic. Or maybe I was just hearing what I wanted to hear. But this is upsetting to me. Another year of fear of him ending up in the hospital for accidentally eating something (you should have seen me last week when a kid left his pretzels on the floor and Jackson was lunging towards them totally a crazy mom moment), more days of making food/freezing/prepping, no taking him out to eat, etc. Traveling is getting to be impossible because we can take a bunch of baby food and I can only prep so much and take it in the cooler. We want to go to Disney but I already know I have to call and make arrangements for his food. It's just a lot to do on my part. He is completely fine! He's happy, healthy, at a perfect weight, developing perfectly, and he has no idea what he's missing. It is sad to me that when he reaches for our food we have to say no. I've thought about making us all soy/egg free but we really can't afford it at the moment. Native Sun already gets a pretty penny out of us for Jackson's food!
I know I have no room to complain because I see kiddos that have serious issues. And I thank god everyday for Jackson. But sometimes I can't help but to get frustrated. When I'm looking at the bright side this kid eats way healthier than any other kid!
