Resolutions

Happy New Year! Ooops it's February. I was going to skip a bunch of posts- Christmas, Thanksgiving, etc but after making my pregnancy book, I realized how much I appreciated all the posts! I'll post my pregnancy book after I print it. It's awesome! I hope Jackson will appreciate it one day. If not I'm sure his wife will :)

1. Keep updating the blog so I can make Jackson's 1st year book
2. Loose all of my pregnancy weight (only 1 pound left) and loose 3 more pounds.
3. Make mommy friends. When I got pregnant I assumed most people didn't want to hang out with a pregnant lady- I can't drink wine or coffee or shop at normal stores.. and I go to bed at 8:30. So now I am ready to be social! My goal was to join My Gym. Check!
4. Make it to happy hour with my nonmommy friends. I didn't make it for FOUR months after I had Jackson but January I did and it was so much fun!
5. Learn how to cook fish. Start cooking/baking again. I have made fish twice and it went pretty well. I have been cooking a lot more. I hope to post some recipes soon.
6. Be a better wife. For the first 3 months of Jackson's life it was really hard- I was struggling to talk about anything other than Jackson and my patience for Jamie was zero. I felt really bad! Plus I wasn't cooking- not that he really minded. Actually he never said anything but I know it was a big change. In December I made a big effort to attend all the things Jamie wanted to go to even though that meant leaving Jackson behind. It was HARD but worth it. We need time to ourselves too.
7. Do something for myself besides work. I am trying to read more books that are fun. The problem is I get a glass of wine, start reading, and two pages in I'm asleep.
8. Quit comparing! This should be number one. When I was pregnant the comparisons were weight but I was pretty comfortable about how much I gained. And then you go to labor and delivery, etc. Things just didn't go how I planned. Everything was much harder than I imagined. Breastfeeding/Pumping, sleeping, Jackson crying 24/7 due to being hungry and allergic to dairy/soy.. I felt like I wasn't being the mom I pictured. I was comparing myself to everyone else and I just wasn't measuring up. I found two pieces of advice helpful 1. A happy mommy is a happy baby. 2. The comparisons start at pregnancy and continue their entire lives. Oh he is walking at 5 months, he made the varsity team, got into XYZ college. That is insane! When I read that I just stopped. I knew I was doing the best job possible and NO ONE  can tell me how to feel. NO ONE is in my shoes. So I know people are judging but I am completely happy with me, Jackson, Jamie. Honestly the second I stopped worrying about everyone else it got easier. Jackson is the happiest baby! I am now exactly how I pictured myself being as a mom. I love my life! Now of course I brag about Jackson because he is the cutest, happiest, smartest baby alive but I'm not comparing him to other babies.  Soap box :) I just had to share because I wish I would have known this before hand instead of 8 weeks in when I was about to loose my mind due to stress of not doing what was "right".

This year I am actually doing my resolutions who am I?! hahha